After a better day, here I am in a mood of serious discontent. With many things in my life I am not feeling gratitude, which is unlike me. Mostly I'm irritated with Chris, but then more so, I"m irritated with myself for being dependent once again, feeling like I'm not being heard. I don't want this to be a husband bashing post or blog, but if any of you see fit to send me a bit of wifey/fiance/girlfriend whining, please email me and let me know!
Things that are so bugging me right now:
Our small house and Chris shooting down absolutely every option that I come up with to rememdy it. This heading can include so many subcategories that you wouldn't believe. Such as moving, adding on, buying a new house, moving into a larger rental.
Only having 2 kids. He says he is done, I'm so not ready to be done.
Him saying no to a dog that I want, only considering the type that he wants and still it's no.
My spending my $ to make sure the house is clean enough for him when I think it's great as it is.
No date nights, but there is always time for pool, beer and golf with his dad.
Wow, I'm in a bitchy mood! I need to wear a neon sign. I'm really not a happy camper lately. You know, before the miscarriages and my dad dying, I used to have faith and some patience to wait for it, but I haven't had any of that for years now. I miss it, but I really don't feel it anymore.
Bring on the fall!