I have a couple of minutes before the sitter gets here and I think that with the time constriction, I can get this out.
We found out this weekend that a friend of ours from high school was shot and killed by the police as he was stabbing a woman in the neck. No joke. This isn't a law and order. It's like fucking Boyz in the Hood or something. And I can't stop crying. I hate drugs. I hate meth. This man deserved to be shot and killed, and yet he wasn't always this man.
This man was one of my sister's first boyfriends. One of her first kisses. This man was Chris' english partners. He was funny. He tried his best to get good grades. He was a football phenom. He was a loving daddy to his son. He tried. He was a drug addict. And we still loved him. He was dangerous. And no one could do anything.
The last time I saw him, we were at a community basketball game for our city team. He smiled like the sun to see Chris and I together. He congratulated us on being together. He was there with his son and his wife. We sat with them and we loved to share their company. But he was still drugging. But his heart was pure.
Chris gets melancholy. My sister shrugs it off. I cry and cry for his son and for the man that had a huge heart that we lost. I feel safer because he is dead. He sheet is unfathomable. But, you guys, I loved him. I love his son and his ex. I hate drugs so much. I hope that he has found peace. I am so sad.
When he was born, was it predetermined that he would be shot and killed? Was this his path? You guys, his heart wasn't bad, please know that. Chris says that it was M's decision to take drugs. But I know that it wasn't his choice to be addicted. I guess that all I want to say is that sometimes the bad guy wasn't always the bad guy. I see his mug shot and my heart melts. I love this man. I don't love what he became with drugs. Please understand, as I don't know how else to say this.
RIP
9 comments:
I am so sorry. This is so sad. So many victims.
MP
I am so sorry for your loss. You can love the person and hate what they do. Drugs are such an enemy!
I agree Drugs and Alcohol ruin lives. I'm sorry you've lost someone you hold dear.
Lala's right, you can love the person, but hate what they do.You know even with help, rehab and counseling, it's an individual's choice (free will) to self-destruct. Now I'm starting to cry!
It is very sad!
That's horrible, I am sorry for your loss. It is heart wrenching to see someone do that to themselves.
This (the whole dang thing) is SOOO sad. Drugs really do change people. I'm sorry you lost the good part that was in his heart. I pray for peace for his son.
I know what your saying, I just keep thinking he was always nice to me and I always thought he was a great guy. Drugs eat away at who people truly are and leave behind an empty space that is filled with things we don't recoize in the ones we love.
I am SO sorry this happened. I can totally relate. My youngest sister has been on meth for about 12 years. She tries to quit but can't and won't admit she has a problem. She says she can "handle it". I'm just waiting for "the call." She used to be so sweet and caring...I know there is a good heart in there. But I also know not to lend her money or leave my children with her. It is truly heartbreaking. And frustrating. I tell her all the time that I love her no matter what...but that I think she is making some VERY poor choices for her life. To put it mildly.
YES you can still love them. Unfortunately, it doesn't help much.
What a terrible story. This is so sad. My heart goes out to everyone involved.
I don't know what to say. I'm so so sorry for your loss. What an awful waste of a life, a life that you cared greatly for.
*hugs*
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