accomplished!

We finally took our First Aid/CPR/Bloodborne Pathogens class today! It was boring, and about the same that I remembered from last time, but it is finished!! I have been putting that off forever it seems and after a lot of waiting and a lot of work, it's done :)

We used a new sitter today who really helped out in a pinch. When I have something set that I need a sitter for, I have a lot of people that I can ask, but this weekend it seemed like everyone was busy. She got dropped off and picked up at the house which is a huge plus. She took the kids to the commercial playground that is by our house and played with them and gave them lunch. I hope that she'll sit for us again, but I couldn't really get a good read off of her. We'll see.

a switcheroo

Today I was armed and ready to have my teeth cleaned. And then when I showed up for my appointment they told me that I had two fillings that needed repair that were on the treatment plan last year that I haven't had taken care of yet. Grrr. I went ahead and did the restore work but I've been off my game all day. On a good note, they said that all of my work that needed to be done since my pregnancy with Hendrix is completed. Now they are just watching a crown that may need replaced down the line and I'm on a cleaning schedule every 4 months instead of 6. I am considering changing dentists though as they have raised their nitrous prices from 20 to 40 a visit and that's out of pocket.

Blech

Have you seen that commercial for Easy Feet? It's a bristly brush thing that you put your foot in while you are in the shower. I squirm even watching the commercial. It looks like soapy torture.

six on Sunday

six things I'm thankful for today

1. my kids and husband


2. my dvr


3. my laptop


4. sausage and potato soup


5. hot packs


6. my jobs


7. military challenge coin
that my dad gave to me

And I figured out how to edit this code to include the last item! I'm normally only good for cut and paste types of editing, but I took my time and did it! That's big for me! And it looks complicated!

Looking back

and building the case for being better. In tracking out my cycles on my desktop computers

I have been able to somewhat pinpoint when days will be good and be bad. And yet, while I'm in the bad days, it's hard to see that progress has been made.
So today I'm making myself look back and document what has been better this cycle.
with the IUD, the bleeding has almost stopped
with the chinese herbs and acupuncture the breast pain has really reduced as well along with the extreme bloating. And these are all great things.
But today has been sad and confusing. I'm quick to anger and tears, feel tired and wondering what I'm doing with my life.
It also doesn't help that I'm tired from a cranky two year old last night. Tomorrow will be better.

not what I thought

In the twenty days that I've been forty, I can tell you, that it is a lot better than I had heard it would be. In one way, it feels calm and peaceful. In another way, it feels like a big accomplishment to be this old. I was scared about losing vibrancy, technicolor drama that is such a blast but so exhausting. But I was looking at Jackson and the younger nephews yesterday at Easter and I felt so ready and happy to pass on all of it to them. That urgency is resting now, I want them to take their turn at living large and changing the world.

40

So, I've been 40 for a week now. And it feels good and it feels weird. Almost like a dream that I can't believe. Not too much difference except for how I feel about myself. Off the top of my head, I would say that I feel 32, so that works. I'm feeling kind of bored lately. Not really sure what the next step is or what I should be doing next or even what I'm doing right now. It's a lot to think about, but I'm trying to just stay open and see what comes my way. I looked into an esthetician course today to learn more spa stuff.
We'll see.

Driving day

Here are the places that I went yesterday in order

1. Alexy's house to pick up carpool


2. Ivy's school


3. spa to give a massage


4. coffee house for a steamer


5. Alexy's house for meeting


6. day care to give breaks


7. drop off Bec art class


8. coffee house to pick up lattes for sis and cousin

didn't drive to myonox right here



9. day care to give another break


10. Pick up Becken from art class


11. day care to drop off Bec


12. Jaiden's baseball game


13. deli to drop off spa poster


14. bookstore to drop off spa poster


15. day care to pick up kids


16. home


17. rite aid

Seriously. Woops! Add in the grocery store after #10

Maybe I spoke

too soon.

This kid is still drugged up and can't walk upright or straight, but that doesn't stop him from trying. (Good thing he isn't interviewing for any columbus jobs because he wouldn't be hired for sure)

He has fallen out of his bed 3 times. And fallen out of the recliner 3 times. All because he thinks that it's funny. He's gonna end up injured worse than his dental work. And then I'm going to ground him. Grrr.

survived

Becken's dental appointment today. He had two teeth pulled which he is ecstatic about because now the tooth fairy gets to come visit for the first time. He has been looking forward to this for soooo long. Every time that Ivy loses a tooth, he would bawl saying that it was going to take forever for him to lose a tooth.

He was really funny when he had his sleepy juice. He was laying on the carpet in the waiting room looking up at the lights. He said, "mom, you have to look at this! The light bulbs are amazing!" Could you imagine what he would have said if there were ceiling fans to look at?

It was great!